May 14, 2019

♥ Unexpected Feeling.

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The very last.

"i think i've fall in love with her since then"..............."i'm sorry"

Today, aku decide nak touch up part 12 for this story. Sebenarnya, dah lama dah ada draft pun part 12 ni. But, aku ragu ragu untuk post. Aku rasa takperlu kot untuk post. Memang macam aku taknak post pun. Tak membawa kebaikan langsung. Sebab there's a lot of negative things in that story. Kang kena ban pulak aku mengajak kepada self harm. Hahahahaha. Tengah aku berfikir tu, suddenly out of nowhere aku teringat yang my best friend once have a blog too. So aku stop fikir jap. Aku try to recall apa link blog dia. and at last, jumpa jugak. Habis semua entry dia aku baca and aku came across a note. She wrote something back then. and lepas baca benda tu,shit this hit me so hard. Aku rasa macam ugh i really need to stop this. 

Im sorry that i called you that night, im sorry making you feel that way. Im really sorry. That is why i never tell anyone about my sadness, my problem. I hate people blame themselves bc of me. I really sorry. i shouldnt do that. sigh. She said, she know i'll be happy. She put a high hope on that, but aku? Masih bodoh menulis cerita yang sakit ini. Masih bodoh try to remember every single things that happen untuk tulis dalam blog ni. Bodohnya aku? Diri sendiri yang buat diri sendiri. Macam mana nak kehadapan kalau fikiran masih lagi di masa lalu?

Kenapa aku masih perlu tulis semua ini? I know this is your place Hana, this is the only place you can talk whatever you want. To be honest, aku sendiri pun taktahu why i still have the urge to write this story. To still have a continuous draft on this story. Maybe i want this story to have a diff ending? I swear to god, i really dont know. But sigh, THIS story needs an end. I think this story is one of the reason why im still in the past. It is what it is. Yes. So i guess, this ends here. There's no more to tell. No more to rant. I'm very sure that everybody know how well this story end right? So yeah. Thank you for reading. and i think someday, The Unexpected Feeling will be no longer on this blog. Aku taktahu bila, but im sure of it. Or maybe even worse, this blog also will be deleted. I'll do. Whatever it takes.

So long and, goodnight. 

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