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12 February 2019,
selamat ulang tahun awak.
i saw your stories, her stories on instagram.
You had a great birthday yeah?
Tbh, im jelous. That should be me with you? nah? idk, didnt move on yet?
i do not know what should i do about this.
still loving you? or just cant move on? or cant forgive you yet?
You bring her to see your mom.
You didnt do that to me?
You buy her things.
You didnt buy for me? even on my birthday.
You show her off, you proud of her, you praised her in public.
You didnt do that for me?
I really did not know what did you feel about me when we're together.
I didnt know what that 5years means to you. I just did not get it.
You left me with millions thoughts. Just like that.
Did im not enough? where did it go wrong? what did i lack of? should i do better? what exactly should i do? my effort didnot enough after all of this? did not meet your expectation? what even means by your "iloveyou" every single night and morning? What makes your heart change drastically? How about all of our promises? Your promises towards me?
But yeah, youre my past. Too many question still lingering around.
Sigh... No matter how many times does my mind say "it is what it is"
But still, deep down in my heart wishes shit what different.
Happy bithday, Little did you know, if happy is her, im happy for you.