Hey guys. Update time.
So.. today im gonna talk about changes. Not again about my "dream" to change to be better. But now, its about people. feeling. friendship. and love. Erm, yeah lately "people do change" phrase keep on flying in my mind. So i decided to googled it. Ramai sangat yang berubah dalam hidup aku skarang. Rasa kosong. Yes. Totally kosong. Tak tahu nak fikir apa. Tak tahu nak buat apa. Tak tahu.
Its hurt right to see someone you love, someone you adore is not being what they used to be? not being the old of him/her self. They've change. Change completely. The question is why? Whereas before this, they have promised to not to do that. Yeah people right, dont promise when you're happy. Dont talk when you're mad. Dont decide when you're sad. But, back to our fault too. Terlalu percaya and terlalu sayang. Yup! Bc of that.
The most answer for why and what makes people change is ;
♦ Pain
♦ Time
♦ Being ignored
♦ Bored
♦ Learned a lot
Yeah i admit, its make sense and I believe its the main reason. But reason lain? I think, "some" people dont really change. Over time, we just know who they really are or they've open up their mask on their face or they've tired to being not them. Damn. Lets imagine, you're talking to someone you love today like always. But in the next day.. next week... tetiba dia rasa "eh bosan ah jadi bukan aku ni, ubah ah jadi aku dulu balik" then dia terfikir lagi "kalau dah dia sayang aku skarang, mesti dia boleh sayang aku lagi lepas ni" so they decided to reveal themself. They change slowly. and dem it, kalau perangai yg dulu tu okay, lg baik dari sekarang takpe la. Tp kalau tak? Perangai dulu lagi teruk? Emm, maybe orang yg betul betul sayang may stay. But till when?
Macam mana kalau yg diubah tu orang takboleh nak terima? Orang tak boleh nak hadap. Orang even tak boleh nak try untuk biasakan. Orang just nak yang dulu. Tak rasa ka one day orang fikir dalam dalam.. Kenapa orang still sayang even dah tak mcm dulu. Memangla bukan orang sayang sebab dulu je, kalau ubah mcm mana pun orang tetap sayang. Tapi try bayang kucing yang tiap tiap petang tunggu kita balik for gesel gesel badan dia kat kaki kita, then one day theres no more? kucing tu dah tak tunggu kita dah tak memanja dengan kita dah. Tak rasa pelik ke? Tak terasa ke? And what if one day orang dah tak tahan dengan perangai yang ni? they miss the old you? then orang rasa give up. By that time, uhm serve you right.
Tapi kadang kadang, ada yang tak sedar pun dia berubah. Orang sekeliling dia je yang sedar dia berubah. Ada juga yang berubah bukan jadi dia yang dulu. Tapi jadi orang lain. This case, dia mmg okay then tetiba dia berubah jadi orang lain? Yang ni erm dont know what to say. Hahaha. Ergh, what ever happen, pls be urself. Dont let emotion change urself. Dont let people change urself. If u're good enough then stop there. If you're not, make it better but do it with ur heart bc Allah and urself, not bc people ask to, bc kalau dah berubah untuk orang lain terima, untuk orang lain suka, nampak sangat tak ikhlas and im sure you'll jadi balik anda yang dulu. Bye, xoxo ♥
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12 Mac // 21:50
Entry ni dah seminggu jadi draft. Day by day aku update, then save. Lagi panjang aku karang, lagi aku rasa takmahu post. Why? bc i can. Hahaha. Then aku bukak harini, aku baca balik, aku dah tak faham apa yang aku try sampaikan. Ni mesti aku tulis time mood aku tak stabil, time aku merapu. Time aku konon konon rasa kosong seperti yg ditulis tu. Hahahahahaha. ok. bye.
By the way, MH370, "The flight that never arrived" heart breaking news. T_T #prayforMH370 my thoughts and prayers are all for MH370. May their family stay strong and for sure we must keep praying for them to come back. Come back safely. May Allah ease everything. :')
