November 25, 2015

♥ Fading away~

I wish i could do that, fading away. With no one will notice, with no one will know about my disappearance, with no one will ever care. I just want to being born again. Fix my mistake. Fix the path that i take. Fix everything that makes me feel that im freaking useless. 

Im not saying that im giving up. But life just too hard for me to being strong.I need more than strong to get through this. Theres alot of things getting in my way. Theres alot of wall that i need to break. I cant. Every single thing is getting harder and harder.Sometime i wonder, am i in the wrong path? Am i doing the right things? am i okay? Why im still doing this? But who am i to ask Allah's plan and will right? 

"Its all back to Allah. "On no soul doth Allah place a burden greater than it can bear." (Surah Baqarah Verse 286) In the name of Allah, we praise Him, seek His help and ask for His forgiveness. You just need to take your time, take a deep breath and remember Allah will never make his slave out of control, its all in His plan, what good for us, whats bad for us. 

Its all back to Allah. "He (Allah) created death and life that He may test you, to see which of you is the best in deeds." (Surah Al Mulk verse 2). Allah gave us the test to determine whether one is grateful or ungrateful when faced with adverse conditions."

Buat yang terbaik adalah jalan yang paling baik. Sentiasa berfikiran positive. Something good will came across while im doing the best for the test that being given. I'll just need to pray and wait for it. Whats the meaning of life when its getting easier right? When life is getting harder, its mean you've achieved higher level in your life and indirectly, its show you've increased your experience, isnt it sounds good?

So, lagi 5 hari i'll back to Arau. Cuti semester dah selesai. In a blink of an eye. Seriously. Sumpah aku tak bersedia langsung untuk semester ke-4 ni. Dah macam macam aku lalui selama 3 semester ni. I hope this diploma thingy will end as soon as possible. Cukup aku cakap, aku penat. I'll not updating this blog as always. Maybe twice a month? or one per month? or nothing for this upcoming five month? Ntah la, tengok la nanti. Buat masa ni, doakan aku. See you when i see you ;) adios.


  1. :((( me too....sometimes i wish i could fade...then disappear.

  2. do your best hana..Allah will do the rest..:) - semoga dipermudahkan.. :)

  3. bestnya balik arau....rindu nak lepak kat Academic Height!!!

    lepas ni dah takde sebab utk ke sana....sob6..T^T
    (huwaaaa....nak nanges nih...)

    p/s: fight for ur best for sem4 ya!

    1. hehe academic height banyak scorpion T_T kehkeh.
      takpe, nnt free free boleh dtg melawat..
      Thank you.. :)

  4. I feel the same sometimes. wish i could just disappear :/ stay strong girl! all the best :)


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